An auto-ethnographical approach to analysing the failure of the music theatre in the initial stages of developing "Moving On". I think the failure of this iteration of the piece was my lack of understanding of how my artistic language can function through the medium of theatre, and the reason for trying to do this being an act of showing off rather than for the piece. 

Theatre is something that I find myself overthinking. In doing the theatre for this piece I was obsessed with trying to capture the depth and personal stake I had in the piece, but what I wanted to express only suited the medium of music rather than theatre. I have thought of re-looking at the piece and trying to actively learn from my mistakes in the past, but I don't have enough distance between where I was when writing the piece and where I am now with my improved understanding of theatre. I know more about what works and what doesn't work with theatre in my writing, but nowhere near enough to salvage the mess that was the theatre in "Moving On".

In regards to the aspect of creating for a sense of 'showing off', this was something I feel I have managed to rationalise since writing the piece. At the time of writing the piece, I was feeling very low and my mental health was at a poor state with the amount of rejection I was receiving at the time, and this piece was sort of a very naive attempt to stick the finger at the people that had rejected me. I have since realised that I shouldn't write to impress people, as I'm aiming bang in the middle of their expectations that are often more inclined to business and sustaining industry rather than artistic risk. I'm now happy to say fuck it and make what I want to make and see what happens. Quite arrogant, but it might work out. 

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